Determination Hello there, it's really been a long time after I wrote my last entry in Italki. Actually my lecturer had ask the students to write back in this site about a month before, the first week of this second semester of my diploma program. Thus, now it is the seventh week of the semester. It is really late to write my first entry today, but the job must be done. I'm sorry Mr Kevin. After the last semester end, I thought that I want to study harder in this new semester. I want to defeat someone in this semester, actually. But as time goes by, I realized that my effort is not much as what I had did before. I realized I became more lazy and act as the subjects I learning in this semester is easy. But, the subjects is very different from before. Now, most of the subjects are being taught in Japanese, and when you don't understand the Japanese, you mostly will not understand what had being taught. Now, I must study more by myself instead before I just clinging to the lecturers' notes. But, I did not study more, instead I just take it easy. Before, I can reach to 4 am just to study all the subjects, but for this semester, when the time reach 2 am, it is likely to seeing me falling asleep on my bed. Although I had wished to stay late that night, I just cannot fight the feeling to close my eyes and sleep. I don't know why, but my efforts now is lesser than before. It just like my determination before had vanished. I don't know what to do. The subjects become harder, but my efforts become less. This situation must be stop actually, but I don't know how. Please help.