I can't stand it anymore. The 6th time was the 6th time too much! Gosh I hate women! Gosh damn to Fatima! So called friend in Italki since 2008 wanted to come to Berlin on 22th january to work and learn german. Never called me, never wrote me a E-Mail since this time. I wrote a E-Mail to the german embassy in Manila. They just were able to tell me that they do not know a person with her name. Reminds me of Rhodora also from the Philippines who wanted to steal my money and was a real criminal. Then this bitch from Beijing Flora did not wanted to accept me how Iam and was even the reason why I was short before to go in prison while she laughes her goddamn ass off in Beijing! Or Zhang Ying from Hangzhou. Never was able to accept how Iam either! Just last a month anyway. Or Müjde from Antalya first was in love with some italian guy in the internet then I helped her to come over the break up and then she told me she is now in love with me but then around a month later she left me too telling me she just had commiseration with me just because she knew I'm alone! Or Vanessa bitch from Stuttgart I met in a german chat also just made fun of me and lied to me. I never met anyone of these in my life in reality I just wrote them hundreds of E-Mails, saw them in videochat and beside of Vanessa all the others are from Italki! What the hell I did to god and the world that I'm being hatred by anyone out there since the dawn of my time? The people in the internet lie to me and hate me and the people outside in reality also hate me even if they never saw me before! Now its settled for my whole life. I have enough. My life will just be focused on Heavy Metal, War, Blood, Weapons and Violence. I have enough of all the lies of the people and of the governments. You can rate this notebook entry down you would never know what I went through my whole life anyway. Instead of you I never had money, wealth, acceptance or something you all got since you started to be alive. I always fought for the poor but they never understood or liked me either. I can't stand this anymore. The whole real world and the internet are only fulfilled with lies. I won't care if I shall die sooner or later I mean I would be happy to leave this goddamn world. But I won't make my enemies it that easy. I would never leave without a fight. I will fight till I die for freedom, the poor people and against all the mainstream of the capitalistic world. And I will be single forever. I was it my whole life anyway. You can rate this notebook entry down now I don't care anyway anymore.