try to control myself Yesterday, I lost my temper again because a very very tiny thing. After quarrel with Chen, I felt very bad and sorry. I should not became so angry, anyway it was just a tiny mistake. I think I should be more patience and tolerant. I apologized to him later and promised I will control myself and think more before I lose my temper next time. When I was young, my mother always yelled at me when I done somthing wrong. I had thought my mother did not love me, maybe she only love herself. It is so hard to get praise from my mother. I tried to behave well and do what my mother think is good, just wanted to get some praise from my mother. But it was hard. I don't want to act like my mother. I hope I would be a nice mother to my child in future. Maybe it is a good idea, when I fell angry, I will take a deep breath, and count from 1 to 3, then maybe I will calm down, and think in a different way. I don't want to be a person always hurt the one whom she love very much.