Nanny's Diary As a nanny, you need to look on up the kid as if she were a 70-year-old professor while she's spitting on you whenever she's down. You got chase her everywhere and when you gotta go to the bathroom,you will be the one to blame as someone who's not responsible.I'm not taking it as something low,and i know that takes love, patience and patience. It's like i can stand that i'm becoming your new nanny,wating for your daughter painting a pic while you all shopping in the store,pretending that she's with a normal temper,collecting things she threw away,being doubted whether do i have the ability to take over a kid in 30 mins... but hey, could you guys stop changing so much in your attitudes towards me in a second?You parents spoke like totally different persons who i really don't know,like in the past i was partially of the family someone who can be forgotten and if you'd spoken to me for a single word all night it doesn't matter and now,in a flash,i'm so memorable and you guys must stand up to fight back every word that seems against me.Does it reminds u my name?And all this makes me sick.Is this something you called pay? And my mum's training me like i'm gonna devote myself to the naughty,like what she did,she did something great,but does it have to be like i'm gonna do the same thing like it's a bonus? When did life teach me to be so mean since i'm messing with myself tonight,keeping tearing myself into pieces and then trying to put them together.Like it's changing every second as another world when i judge myself right or wrong.I'm so serious with turning this page that i dont want it to be turned over easily.I wanna cry out cuz i wanna say i don't like it at all,while it reminds me of the cliched saying "everything's the same with or without you".So it's like i'm a spoiled child being too sentimental again.I truly don't have a clue in living in a world of twisted relationships,please wake me up from the nightmare,i hope it's just kinda growing pains.Or just make me fall asleep as others and when i wake up i could say i've got through.