"i am really sorry mr. chocolate" he is a nice person. he is nice to everybody and too nice to me. actually he is one of my cousin's friend. we have known each other since about a year ago and a mean time, we were not so close. (he is quite silence person. so hard to get close with this kind of person. XP plus, he is 4 years older than me. -so big brother XP) it started from went a-day holiday together with a few friends and cousins. (we were in the same car.) i thought he was already asleep so that i can share some of my problems with my cousin. i told her the problems and i started crying. after all the scenes, suddenly i was shocked when he said "naive..don't be so naive". i dont want to tell anybody besides my cousin about my problems and all. i just dont like it. aspecially when it comes to problems that have related with my family. i dont want to get any attention or sympathy. but now, he knows everything. i dont know what should i do with him. i just say to him (when we were alone) "can u do me a favor..? please.. delete all the stories and the scenes that u just heard from u're memory..(in a polite way with a smile and a lilttle bit of childish pleasing faced) but he just smiled at me #.pfftt...! ==" since then, he contacts me through calls and message like almost every week, then, it becomes almost everyday. one night, he made some confession to me. he said that he likes me and it started from that a-day holiday. then i caught that he is actually not really likes me nor loves me but it was just only a sympathy. that is what my cousin's opinion too. it was just started from a sympathy..and that is the worst, most pitiful love to me. at first, i just laughed and told him that he was playing around with me. but after he got a bit mad and really serious, i did try to tell him what i feel. he is only an elder brother to me. but he dont get the point and keep denying. because of his kindness and my weakness (which is i have a bit low self-confidence), i dont know how to reject him in a good way and not to make him hurts. a big guilt feelings will come in to me whenever i want to speak to him. now, it just be hanging there for about a months! what can i only do when he tells me again and again is i just laugh and take it as it was just only a kidding. but i know it hurts him too. i just dont want him to be waiting any longer so that he can give up on me and just get move on. #hopefully *sigh