Mixing feelings I'll be go home at the end of this month for national day, I'm preparing it for a long time ago till now, I'm go shopping in internet & outside for all baby's clothes, tools & bottle, but I'm also have some confuse how to face this go home. My son left me around four months, and he gives me a strange feeling, he is my son in fact, but he should be forget me and I'm also hard to show my mother's love to him, everything are all strange & ridiculous, I'm afraid to face them,it will make me uneasy & upset.I know something cannot to change and just can change myself only. I hope it will be a good ending,maybe he can accept my embrace, and I can love him as a normal mother. my dear, pls forgive me that I said as above, it's my truly mood.