Can anyone help fix this / suggest better word choices? Thank you! Oct 12, 2019 I don't like reading and writing. Chinese was a dreadful class for me in high school and composition was my least favourite part of all Chinese exams. My mom bought me a series of encyclopaedia books when I was a little girl, but well, I barely turned a page. After I grew up, flights are almost the only place where I read and write, because there is no distraction and no alternative. I like to put thoughts and structure to things that happen in my life while I'm thousands of feet up in the sky. I have to admit that my student life was somewhat prescriptive. I did what I was told to do and I was pretty good at it. I was told to be a good student and to get into a top university, so I spent long nights solving math and physics questions, and memorising English vocabularies and grammars. At some point I was told that my fitness level would also be tested and contribute to my final score by testing running, long jumps, and throwing balls. Despite being skinny and physically weak, I trained myself with my classmates everyday and I barely slacked. Thanks to that, I run marathons now. Does this count as serendipity? :) My student life had been like a hurdle race, and I crossed the finish line once I entered college. So I stood there, bewildered. No one could tell me what to do anymore and the choices were all mine. There was no right or wrong, no black and white. That was when disorientation and frustration kicked in. Making decisions is an ability and like any other skill, you lose it if you don't practice. I struggled but I gradually came into peace with myself, or at least I'm trying.