Ramblings A reflexion that further fortifies my opinion that a dependency is a disease ; all my mind processes are completely bypassed by said dependencies most of the time. Or rather, not exactly. All my dependencies are completely bypassing my mind processes, most of the time. It is NOT a part of them, it's just... Severely entangled trough them all. Calling the priorities in their place, taking control. Like fucking mind parasites. A big part of it becomes a series of miserable choices in the developped stages, sure... But at it's very basis... It is and stays a sickness. Fucking cancer, it is! Really makes the worst in people come out. The weaker you are, the quicker it gets at you. BUUUT in order to avoid being only a downer, I shall speak of a positive thought I've had! Yaaaaaaaay! ... Living at the end of the world isn't that bad. Oh well okay, maybe this is about to be A BIT of a downer too. However if you think this trough, it is also brings a bit of reassurance. Even if on a global scale it is catastrophic, on the scale of my sole life... It is pretty awesome, like winning the mega millions! It's like having drawn the short straw only to realise it's the best thing ever. I am fortunate enough to have been born in one of the most developped countries of the earth, and even more I am fortunate enough to be a part of a middle-class family of said country! I have the luck of assisting to the numerous and extreme events of life that are taking place in these ages of overconsumption, in these ages of destruction, madness and desolation... And I have the luck of assisting to it in some of the best conditions there are. Now that's a story! Not to mention that there are great chances I will have lived most of my life before the rough aspects of it start significantly impacting it's expenctancy, if they do affect me and not the next generation, or the one that will follow. I almost have the complete book ; how we were born, how we evolved, how we most likely will annihiliate our own selves... And that, is a privilege that can only belong to those who are alive to see the end of the world! I might just have been born in the best of times :) I feel like a videogame character, godamnit.