Try to elaborate. 1. Describe how your life is a mess. 2. And give one or two examples Illustrating how you find it difficult to be happy with people. For instance you could say, "My life is a mess. I wake up in the morning feeling exhausted. My kitchen needs repair and the roof is leaking, yet I can't collect my confusing thoughts enough to do something about it. Living alone is difficult, but I can't be with anybody. My last boyfriend left me in a state of despair after I realized that he ....and two years ago when I was living with .... I had a serious episode of stress because he ...."Something like that. You could also add a kind of conclusion/solution to your situation. "Therefore, I have decided to join a_____ or take a course in ______." But then again, you may just need to vent, and so thoughts about what you can do must give way to this need. Or between the despair and the conclusion you could also add a section where you ponder the reasons why your situation is an especially difficult one, going beyond the mere describing it, and that's where the self-discovery phase takes place, the introspective work of getting to know yourself more.

yeah, I think I should always try to live a better person and day than yesterday.

I understand