My vice-supervisor will be leaving. My vice-supervisor told me that he is going to retire in this year, and I was really shocked and upset. I would describe him as the most widely learned person I have ever met. Although his speciality is aesthetics of fine art, he can also handle a profound discussion from music, theatre play to subcultures. That's why I'm always overwhelmed as well as admire him. It might sound a little strange, but I wouldn't have expected that he would be my vice-mentor in the future when I first met him in my master course. At that time, he lectured us on arcane philosophy (have you ever read Merleau-Ponty's works?), and I was like "what does he talking about?", it was completely over my head. It is understandable that he gave me B as my evaluation, but it was definitely enough for me to feel awkward and disappointed with myself. However, surprisingly enough, after two years later he accepted me as a PhD student and let me in his seminar after all, I don't really understand what was going on at the time actually. Anyway, I have learnt many things from him since then, and became a little more capable of discussing intricate topics with him, so that I'm proud of myself somehow, and Merleau-Ponty has become my favourite philosopher. After recieving the news, I have been confused and felt helpless because I'm not really sure what I would do without his help and advice. I know I should put my things together, but it seems just hard at this moment. ​