Party Well, club is definitely not the best place, being drunk is not best condition, 4am is not the best time and it's not the best topic to write about in any kind of social nets anyway But still Maybe you know that feeling, when you drunk something but it was not enough to feel freedom, to forget all that stuff that bothers you ( well, I hope none I know in a real life will even find all these notes. Shame on me, it's really uncomfortable to be honest) So, what I wanted to talk about I'm 20yo and I came here to have fun, but I'm just sitting at the table and looking around. It's not a real club. It's the party without fixed place. Once a month or two people with the same passion are meeting and hiding from the world. That's was I was planning to do and where I actually failed. Every time I'm trying I end like this. I like noisy places with an infinite number of people but I still need someone next to me I mean, a person who won't be the part of a company or just someone I unexpectantly met. It must be the person I can call mine. Doesn't matter if it's a girl or boy, which kind of relationship we are in. It's just about feeling warmness. It's 5am. I'm almost sober. Didn't do anything the society can judge me for. Dancing and looking around. I also should say that I t's not just a party with floating location. It's Asian party. With Korean pop music. People are expecting to meet Korean people. But mostly there are Russian and west-Asian guys who are pretending Korean to be popular. Some of them have girlfriends or even wives. Nobody care. As well as they do. It's just a club, right? Everything have happened in a club exists only here. Nothing will remind. None will ever know. Is it possible to trust people if you have seen the life from this side? I don't know I don't trust. I don't believe. I'm so young. But I feel so strange. It's the feeling when you don't need any compliments, smiles, jokes, flowers and so on. You just need hugs. Strong hugs. To be not just a girl, but a personality, someone who is well known. Why are we here. Who we are. I'm not really sure if I want someone to read this. Probably in the morning I will wish none reads it till the end. But I promised myself to write here whenever I have thoughts which are making me feel sick. Just let's be happy. Let's love Let's be loved Life is so short Everyone needs someone who can help to forget how cold authumn is.