memoir PS：（thank you for your help） Since then, I became more and more cheerless and negative, I started to reproach myself, an idea occurred to me that if I hadn’t insisted on coming to this school but chosen to stay in the high school of county, maybe my father won’t have to make money so hard, I was to blame. My mother didn’t come to see me due to distance and fare, I pretended that I had great perseverance on the phone with her because she had been under a heavy financial and psychological burden, I shouldn’t have added more trouble to her. As a matter of fact, every time I came up with what my father talked to me and my impatience and wayward spirit I burst into tears. Had finished the final examination in tension, there is no doubt I made a real balls-up of my exams. I still remembered that night after getting our results, all my roommates went to movies. I sat alone on a stone bench in the square where there with so many people coming and going, there was a rainfall early, outside the breeze was fresh and cold. I dialed the number again though nobody would answer me, began crying, regardless of the eyes of those around me. That senior, with which was the boy I fell in love afterwards. Sent me a message and asked me to go back quickly, it was dangerous to stay outside. We discussed the ideal, future, I felt moved and delighted. Perhaps he absolutely raised me up. I was no longer dispirited like before.