1 st in 2017 I should say 2017 really gives me a struck just at its beginning. A lot of work and some of them I even don't know the direction to make them right. Some unworkable critics come and most terrible for me —— I had a little confict with someone else. I couldn't help crying in the restroom, trying not to be awared. I was so hurt that I just wanna take some actions but not just wait, why I have to suffer this. I never felt so frustrated before because I couldn't find the reason to resist anymore. Then I heard a speech from Opera Whinfrey which is so inspiring, and it did work for a few minutes. Then the weekend came and I have been in the worry of going back to work during the weekend. Finally Monday comes. I tried to calm myself down from thinking what to do next, and try to fix something, but things are still not going well, I made a even bigger mistake than last week. Actually the conflict happend in last week is just some misunderstanding, it didn't cause any consequence, but what I did today can be a little disaster. I've been so nervous for a whole day and try to do something else to delay the result that I should face. I got through it very easily when I turn to it, after a lot of struggle in mind. On the way back from work, I heard that speech again. I felt peace finally. I just need to get used to frustration, failure, critics, if I wanna go out of my comfortable area and push the bar higher. I got so many side effects just because I've never been out of it before. It's not like finding something to do for myself when feel life becomes monotonus, like reading or working on vacabulary. Hope this is the real peace.