My second diary Dear diary. I know we haven’t met in a while. I want to tell u there is a big reason for this but actually I don’t have a good one. Sorry for that. Recently, I’m getting tired of my long distance relationship wtih my bf who lives in another country. I thought I was handling it well. I’ve done my best for things what I can do in conditions now at least like learning Spanish and earning some money for staying there for a while. Of course, Im sad not to meet my bf in person. But I can’t just be sad all the time and need to move on. I just have to try to share our life with each other by using Skype or texting until we meet again. My bf wants kind of specific plans about our meeting and future. But he already knows its impossible to know this too. How can it be possible to know a flight date which isn’t gotten yet? I understand why he feels like that. But he is not the only one who has gone through hard moments. Even if I don’t want to speak out a typical girl saying, I need a man I can lean on when Im so tired and sad. If he shows his feeling cuz of other reasons, I could handle this and say Im gonna be there all the time for him. But this situation is also affecting me badly too. It’s not about our work or family conflicts sth like that but about us. I feel tired when people hang on problems that can be fixed only by the time. I’m just mad that my bf ruined our another day when we could have shareded our lives happily. I love him and we’ve been doing great so I know we can move on. Why can’t I skip to a good part?… ok it’s enough for today. See you…