After 4 years! I can't believe it was 4 years ago when I wrote my last notebook here and I was worried about living abroad! Here I am, lived and survived for four years, found a good partner and almost done with my studies! Not done yet really, 3 quarter past though. New students are coming and I feel old after all these years --too dramatic huh?. Anyways, I'm extending my PhD in the hope of doing a better job this year. You know with graduate studies you don't really know where to stop most of the time. I've done some work yes, but I'm not happy with myself. I think I could and should do more to be confident for defense...and the hardest part is finding a job after graduation. Well, you can find some job but I mean a career you really love to peruse. Even some of the "good" jobs that you really don't like to do are hard to get. Sometimes I wish I could go back to when I started my studies here. I would do a much better job and work harder. Anyways, I have to remind myself to live the rest of my left better instead of moaning and groaning for loss of past years....