My English-learning Experience And the Psychological Changes Happened to Me. I'm a Chinese girl, I have been learning English since middle school, well, I have to say, in China, most of the students learn it for exams, the textbooks were usually published from 20 years ago, and what we learned is usually grammars and some simple expressions, some grammar questions even quetioned the teachers, but i found it easy for me to learn it, so i guess thats why i liked it. Now, i am preparing for the post graduate education entrance exams, the english is really different from what I learned in high school, it's just difficult! I can't follow the VOA or BBC, I tried to type down what the reporters said this morning, only to found myself stare the screen with a blank brain.... "What did he say?" I asked myself, I rewinded the recordind again and again, and finally, I gave up, I told myself that it might just because I just woke up, I should do it in another time when I feel better with a clearer mind. so, that's it. let alone speak with standard American accent, I cannot even understand what the reporters say. Another thing bothers me is, when check the texts out, I found that nearly 80% words are familiar... :( I don't know what I am supposed to do,maybe I should just "Pratice, practice and practice" all the time. well, actually, i know the biggest problem on me is that I'm lazy, yes I know, I spend only 3 hours on English learning, and think about other stuffs most of the time while studying, maybe I am too stressed, maybe I am just don't like it as much as I used to be, I feel rather tired of what I am doing now, I know, I don't dislike English, I just dislike the way I'm "learning" it (if it can be called as learning"). so, to overcome the my current laziness, i bought quiet a few books about how to learn or work, such as Mega Memorry by Kevin Trudeau; Tomato Work by Mario Fusco... they are really good books, but I some how can not focus. as long as I find difficulties I would complain about my childhood, my parents... so I guess maybe I should settle my psychological problems, what did i read again? well, I really love the book, it's called Road Less Travled by M. Scott Peck. It's really amazing, I found that most of my problems came from my mom, the way she treated me. And I finally wasn't that confused with the world, I realized that it's not just me--many people suffer similiar problems as I do, and what's more woderful, I realized that I Can be cured in some proper ways. Finally, I don't see the world and myself in a very passive wa