What did he say in this video? I couldn't catch some parts. Could you please tell me?

How loneliness affects the well-being of the old and young http://www.bbc.com/news/health-35252947

An elderly man said, "It was roughly this time last year when I found out what loneliness was. My late wife said I wouldn't cope and she was right, entirely right. But it was quite shocked to me, I don't deny it. At night I'm sitting at home and thinking, crickey I'm not enjoying this. I've never been depressed seriously, but I do know what the symptoms because of what I've done in my life. I could feel the symptoms rolling in and then a good kick up the backside and move on, you know this is not on.
But here you are a year later, it doesn't matter what you do, there are times when you sit at home watching television, and you want to say something but you can't because there's nobody there. I'm a very positive individual, but I found this is very difficult to cope with I dont  deny it." 

The anchor said, "When is the worst time?"
The elderly man said, "Going to bed. It sounds... well you can put whaterver connotations you like on that, but it is going to bed with alone is the thingvthat I struggle with. And I think it's worse thing is that actually it comes up with Christmas. It was the first Christmas that when I woke up, I was not surrounded by somebody else or Christmas presents or things like that. And I really struggled to cope with it, I will not make that mistake again. And if I find a new partner that shall be fine, but if not I will be looking at Christmas in a completely different light. I can see you nodding your head there you know what I mean.

A woman said, "It is difficult, Christmas is hard."
The elderly man said, "It's difficult to explain. I have a friend who asked me out to dinner, and I told him I can't do it until next week. He said, "Well you don't sound very lonely to me". 
The anchor said, "So how would you describe loneliness than compared to someone? Like you said, someone was like cheer up, or you should not be lonely. How do you explain that?"

The elderly man said, "It's a black hole in your soul. It's very difficult to....to.... it's like an eel, you can't quite grasp it but you know it's there. It's a feelng, it's in here. Deep inside. I have a little cathphrase, I have lots of people to do things with, but I have nobody to do nothing with, and its at that time when I feel lonely. 

Here you go :)