If there are any mistakes,_repetitions or if something grates in your ear, please correct it! Part_1

“ I’d rather put on this grey baggy sweater and black pants. Don’t want to stand out”.

“I won’t even try to take part in this contestant, I won’t win anyway, the rest are much smarter”.

Or even, “ I’d better not say anything. Anyway, nobody cares about my opinion, it will only irritate”.

These are symptoms of the horrible illness called “self-doubt”, which hit me severely, when I was at school. It contributed to my timidity, sensibilitysensitivity, fear to make decisions and to express my opinion, inferiority complexes and low-rating self-esteem. As a result, I only had an only the “great” company of gossips and moanerscomplainers.

Though, I cared too much about others people opinion and decided to leave everything as it was.

A nightmare. Not the most pleasant memories in my life.

But I couldn’t stand it anymore, I felt that I should change it, and the faster the better. So one day, I collected gathered all my the courage that I had, came went up to* {or approached} my classmate, explained that I had left my company and actually asked her to be my friend. I liked her, she wasn’t affected by others people's opinions, did what she wanted to do, and said what she wanted (to say). I was afraid at that moment. I was sure she wouldn’t agree. But to my great surprise, she accepted me easily and told me: “You finally you did it, I didn’t understand what did you were doing there”. We are still best friends now. Though I was glad to have a new friend, I still wasn’t confident enough to stand out or to express my opinion, I still thought that the rest others were against me, gossip about me and judge me. And what I wanted the most was to be independent. And I succeeded.

*"Came" can have a sexual connotation, so it's better not to use it to mean that you went to talk to someone.

If there are any mistakes,repetitions or if something grates on your ear, pleeaase correct it! Part1

“ I’d rather put on this grey baggy sweater and black pants. Don’t want to stand out”.
“I won’t even try to take part in this contestant, I won’t win anyway, the rest is are much smarter.” 
Or even “ I’d better not say anything, anyway nobody cares about my opinion, it will only irritate."

This are symptoms of the horrible illness called “Self-doubt”, which hit me severely, when I was at school. It contributed(?) to my timidy, sensibility sensitiveness, fear to take decisions and to express my opinion, complexes and low-rating and general self doubt. As a result I had an only “great” company target of for gossips and moaners.
Though However I cared too much about others people's opinion and decided to leave everything as it was.
Nightmare. Not the most pleasant memories in my life.
But I couldn’t stand it anymore, I felt that I should change it and the faster the better. So one day, I collected all my courage that I had, came to my classmate and explained that I had left my company how I felt and actually asked her to be my friend. I liked her, she wasn’t effected by other people's opinion, did what she wanted to do, and said what she wanted. I was afraid at that moment. I was sure she wouldn’t agree. But to my great surprise she accepted me easily and told me : “Finally you did it I don’t understand what did you do there”. We are still best friends now. Though I was glad to have a new friend , I still wasn’t confident enough to stand out or to express my opinion, I still thought the rest was were against me, ready to gossip about me and judge me. And What I wanted the most was to be independent and I succeed .