lost my way

It's been a long time I didn't write anything , actually I am not good at writing .
Today is the day that I came to Shenzhen for one year.

It was like yesterday ,we got up on the morning ,picked up the books,and went to the classroom ,all thing seemed so beautiful ,the streets ,the students ,the yellow little car ,and the lovely classmates ,but it all gone ,and never be back .
I knew that clearly ,and I can handle that ,because everything will move forward ,but I can't accept myself now ,the present situation ,the life style ,the thought ,and the action ,I deeply feel I lost my way .
Every day , just like a robot ,woke up ,get up ,eat breakfast ,take the bus ,start working ,and then go home ,it's seems all ok ,but actually ,it all like a bull shit .
It will cause many years later ,when I look back ,I just through one day ,and all the another day were just the repeatation ,I don't what should I do and also don't how to do it ,and even more worse ,I don't have a dream ,I can't find the thing that I love to do or anyone I am in .
I am working ,eating ,reading ,running ,sleeping ...but just working ,eating ,reading .....

Life is like a mass , we shouldn't make it methodically.
Maybe I will still lost ,but whatever ,let it go .

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lost my way
It's been a long time since I wrote anything, actually I'm not very good at writing.  I came to Shenzhen exactly one year ago today.

It feels just like yesterday, we got up in the morning, picked up the books and went to the classroom.  Everything seemed so beautiful. The streets, the students, the little yellow car, and the lovely classmates. But now it is all gone and will never be back.

I know that clearly, and I can handle it, because everything moves forward. But I can't accept myself now, my present situation, my life style, my thoughts and actions.  I feel deeply that I have lost my way.

Every day, just like a robot, I wake up, get out of bed and eat breakfast.  I take the bus, start working, and then go home.  It all seems ok, but actually, it's all bullshit.

I think that many years from now, when I look back, I will see that every day was a repeating but I don't what should I do and I don't how to do it, and even more worse, I don't have a dream, I can't find the thing that I love to do.

I am working ,eating ,reading ,running ,sleeping ...but just working ,eating ,reading .....

I feel like my life is a mess, and I shouldn't make it methodical.
Maybe I will still be lost, but whatever, I need to let it go .