Past Feelings?

I don't know why, but today I woke up with these thoughts in my head. They wouldn't leave me alone all day. Have you ever longed suffered for somebody? Well, I have, and it's not a very pleasant thing, you know.... I'm not the kind of person that lives in the past, I thought I was over this thing... I think some recent events are the reason why those feelings are back.
Long story short, I had  a partner somebody and this person meant the world to me. However, it was not mutual. Plus, many lies were told, and in the end I was devastaded and alone.
Thank God I have the best friends in the world! They helped me through my miserable state.
So, that happened half an year ago, and just now I'm opening myself up for something new. But I'm afraid I'm rushing things. Perhaps I'm not ready yet...
Just felt like sharing. Thanks for reading.