Uncertainty

I am definitely not the type of person to enjoy adventures or jump into something uncertain. (I can never be a gambler! ) I`m more comforable with something fixed and set up to plans. So I used to make a plan and list it up what I needed to do and what should be supposed to be for the future next. These days, I have realised ((in the U.S., "realized")) that a lot of things do not flow away as planned or predicted ((I would say: "flow smoothly" or "go as expected")), it made me so confused and devastated at that time. But then, I was slowly able to become slowly flexible and less fearful.

Good job. Just keep practicing =)

Maybe it sounds silly because it`s not only the first time to have such situations. I remember I have already had plenty even since I was a little. But something`s different here and now and feel like I`m learning a different life chapter newly again. I still do plan and list up on my own but also finally can be ready to accept anything can happen which is beyond my prediction. It`s no more painful for me to face something goes into a way I never thought, or never want. I believe it`s sort of a surprising gift. There were moments I really hope my life goes as planned and desired but then quickly start complaining once turned out it does not. I cried out with saying life is unfair and tiring. The more uncertainty I am struggle with, the softer and more I flexible I become myself as if a stiff stick can be bent. I am not sure this is great for all the aspects but it surely makes my life less stressful and more positive. I am truly grateful on the life gift even though I couldn`t make all the stuffs as I want. Now I can value it more than success because it encourages me to keep going on and bring me a soft but strong powers seems never run out of.

** To anyone to read this, so sorry I`m not a writer so it might be crap. I jsut wanted to try what I`ve recently feel about. Please don`t judge me but you can judge and correct my wrong English. I will appreciate that. :)