16th of November Today I was having a very boring time. I'm feeling absolute apathy most of the time and I don't want to do anything. Even painting and reading don't amuse me so much anymore. I guess it's because I've been sick for the last three weaks and I've been staying at home. I still haven't recovered. In addition, instead of bronchitis I got sinusitis, which is way worse. I don't want to describe all the unpleasant details of this disease - it's not much fun. I'm taking antibiotics and using a lot of nose drops but it seems not working out. At least I didn't notice any significant changes in the way I feel. If these meds don't help after two days, there will be another, not so desired, treatment. Sometimes, when I consider that, I'm getting scared like a little kid. I'm afraid of a pain, unpleasant sensations, complications. Even though the sinusitis is a common sickness; especially here, in Latvia, because of the wet climate. It's a pure coinsidence that I typed this pessimistic note. I just didn't want to do any other productive work.