confused with work and future

I realize how erratic am I when l go to my part time job, as usual, in the early morning.
I feel that these routines really kill me, let alone being a nurse for 2 years in the hospital.
After graduation, both my parents look forward to me becoming a nurse. That's stressful.
I really don't know what my future would be like. Maybe l will quit and prepare for a working holiday in Australia.
That's me, never be stuck by anything, always try something new, and explore everything interesting to me.
Living in a unforgettable and youthful life is always makes things fresh and hopeful.

The grammar in the underlined statement depends on if you have been studying for 2 years to become a nurse, or if you currently a nurse, or have been a nurse for the past 2 years. Maybe your an intern?

I feel that these routines really kill me, let alone being in a hospital for 2 years to become a future nurse.

confuse with work and future

Confused About Work and the Future

Realize how erratic am I when l go to part time job as usual in the early morning.

I realize how erratic (unsettled?) I am when I go to my part time job, as usual, early in the morning.
I feel that these routines really kill me, let alone be a nurse for future 2 years in the hospital.

I feel that these routines really kill me, let alone to be a nurse working in a hospital in two years.
After graduation, both my parents look forward to me, that's stressful.

After graduation, both my parents are looking forward to my success in work. That's stressful.
I really don't know how my future would be like, maybe l will quit and prepare to working holiday in Australia.

I really don't know what my future will be like. Maybe I will quit and go on a vacation to Australia.
That's me, never be stuck by anything, always try something new , and explore everything interesting to me.

That's me, never be stuck by anything, always try something new, and explore everything interesting.
Living in a unforgettable and youthful life is always make things fresh and hopeful.

Living an unforgettable and youthful life is what makes things fresh and hopeful.

Well done! There were a couple of places where I wasn't sure if I interpreted your words correctly. Please let me know if I misunderstood :)