One day I’ll be able to send this writing (I hope that)

I miss him
I really miss you,. I don’t know how it can be possible if since I have never been with you…
How can I miss someone who I’ve never seen? sSomeone who I’ve never talked with.
How can I miss those hugs, kisses and adviceswords of advice you have never given me?

Damn!! I really wish you were here with me.
And doubly DAMN because I love him.
Yeah, I love you and I don’t really know why…
How can I love someone who doesn’t matter care to know about me?
How can I love someone who decided just to leave when I was coming?
How can I feel that for you? I can’t explain it myself.
Maybe I just miss and love a person who was created by my mind….
Maybe you’re not really this person I wish you were.
But, Ccan you disappoint me more?

I am so confused, I don’t know what I must feel for you. You don’t know how why I suffered because of you, how I felt without you. I should hate you, but I can not. I think she did a good job with me, didn’t she?...