How blue today...

I had a plan going to the Germany through the exchange student course in my university. But.. It was broken to thousands pieces... I failed! My dreaming in Germany become useless... So I should decide completely new how can I go to the Germany. Working-holiday? or just language institute?

I think if I will go to working-holiday, I would live lonely without any friends... I can't speak German fluently, and I don't have any skills for working. I have little knowledge learned in the classes and skills making coffee and serving. But it's no use unless I speak German certainly.

And if I will go to the language institute, I would enjoy my life in Germany. But it costs too much. I'm still working to save money for going to Germany, but it lacks for institute's fee!

I'm searching through the internet for information, but I'm not sure whether I can go to the Germany or not...
So blue.

Correction:

So Blue Today (What is blue?)

I had planned to go to Germany through the exchange student program at my university, but my plans were ruined... I failed! My dream of going to Germany was gone. Now I should come up with completely new plan on how to go to Germany. During a holiday? Or just a language institute?

I think if I go during the holidays, I would be lonely, without any friends... I can't speak German fluently and I don't have any skills to work there. I have little knowledge that I learned in my classes and skills in making coffee and serving. None of this is useful unless if I can speak German fluently.

If I go to a language institute, however, I would be able to enjoy my life in Germany. It costs too much. I'm still working to save money to go to Germany, but I still don't have enough for the institute's fee!

I have been searching through the internet for information, but I'm not sure whether I can still go to Germany or not...
So blue.