My life,

People are all happier than me I am. Wherever I look, I see that people who are trying to make their life better(or better there lives). Then I look at in the mirror and then I see my sadness. I am not happy with my present life but I don't have the courage to change it. I haven't a little don't have much joy in my life. I had a rough childhood as an adolescent. When I think about those days, I believe that my present life is the best and the most for me. It's called acceptance. I accepted it.I almost cry eveyday. I am afraid my life will go on like this and I will die as the same sad person. Cute things don't attract me now. Now I just pray not just to get have a better life, but also not to have a worse life than this.