My little way

I've realized that I've been learning (because it still continues) English for about 1 year and have never tried to write an essay.
This is my first essay I've ever written. I will try to the best of my ability.

It is difficult for me to start writing, but I have to, because this is the only way to start to speaking and thinking in English.
I want to express myself more freely, but I can't in this particular moment.
First off, Beginning this essay I hope that sooner or later I will be able to reach my goal.
I came a long way from beginner with knowledge which I got from usual Russian school, this is equal to no knowledge at all.
But one day I decided that I could learn by myself. One year and a half have passed and I am still alone with my books, with movies and everything. But I am definitely coming along, yes I am. And today I've taken new step by starting to use what I get.
Sometimes we think of ourselves as beasts, or tigers, in particular areas of our life. And there is no difference in which area, we think we could reach everything, but then all of the sudden tripping by our ego, losing of  confidence, we bring yoursrlves down. But in this moment in our life we have to push even more, showing to the universe that we are only becoming even stronger.
I recall myself one year ago, trying to be the very brave and confident girl in English, before I made sure decided to check how good I was, and I was failed, I couldn't say a word
I remember my first day in USA, it was disaster. i felt myself like [a fish out of water], no no, like a big monkey, because I couldn't open my mouth explaining to people what I want to say without using only hands
But I am coming along, yes I am..

-The word ''I'' is always written with a capital letter.
-To think of oneself as "..." = to regard oneself as "..."
-"Than'' is only used in comparisons. Sue is taller than Amy. Your bag is much heavier than mine!

Certainly not bad at all! I think you're heading in the right direction! Good job :)