when could i enjoy my real life i wanted to be excellent. i wanted to be successful. i wanted to do something great. i had big dreams. but i had no one to help me! no one could teach me. i was really lonely. i didn't know whom to turn to. my parents loved me but they didn't how to teach me. my childhood was a nightmare. i felt so bad about myself. even now i don't like to think about it. my life was like that till now. how i wish i had been born into a different family. how i wish my parents had know how to raise kids. how i wish i had met a great teacher when i was young. how i wish i had had someone to turn to for advice when i was puzzled.