never say goodbye I had always been not smoking before. Currently I begin to take the cigarette people give me. It makes me cough frequently. The more I cough, the more my throat pain. I become more quiet than before in the appearance while the heart inside palpitate unease. I figure that I need a girl. Several months ago I had told myself this, I denied(abnegated) it. Now it comes to me again. Recently I read an essay named <on seeing the 100% perfect girl one beautiful April morning>. It mainly told a boy met a girl in the street. They fell in love to each other at their first sight. So delightful they felt when they were knowing that they loved each other so much. But they could not sure that whether the all is real or not. They could not sure that they were the couple destined by god or not. Then they smiled and made a promise that from now, they walking alone by themselves, the next time, if they were the couple destined by god, they must meet again. What a romantic promise! Life is so callous that it fill with various things in your heart irrevocably until you lose your love. Even before no much time elapsed, they had forgotten their original promise, both of them. Then next time they met in the street . A familiar and comfortable feeling would or maybe float in their minds. Just looking at each other until passed by. That is all, no more and no less. It is depressing story. Why I thought of this story? Well, I just want at least meet a girl I will never forget.