im really confused

my universIty life is finishing soon, and i've been searching for a job for so long, but i found find that i become more and more confused as to what i want actually want in my life.
in my childhood i felt i could do everything or and become anyone great in my childhood, i thought nothing was impossible, but now everything has changed.  my childhood dream has died in my childhood, never to come back. all the things i like died as with the time passed ing by.
i am doing the things people think i should do all the time, what am i afraid of?  the reality? or just myself... what will i become in the future? i dont know... but growing up means i must be responsible for myself, my family... but everything is still so unsure (or uncertain), it maybe may be exciting or it may be also maybe horrible (or terrible?).

Punctuation - comma, full-stop, colon ... all are written with a following space and no space preceding.  Ellipsis '...' is likewise followed by a space.  New sentences commence with a capital letter and 'I' is always written capital unless you are ee cummings!  Lets forget about the capitals here though.

Maybe or may be, aye, there's the question! haha no apologies to Shakespeare!