Some thoughts and doubts

Sometimes I reflect seriously wonder if I will ever know English so well enough to be able write articles or books? Not a belletristic literature, of course.
The latter would be virtually impossible, I imagine. But rather something about professional matters, something non-fictional...

And yet this seems an unattainable goal as well. Well, I've read a number of books in English on very different topics, and nevertheless I still slip up like hell when I write; I make too many mistakes - even basic ones. Maybe it's a question of natural ability (with me)? Or maybe it's just a matter of applying oneself in earnest to the study of English? For example, in Russia a lot of people start learning English in the first years of school and continue studying it in institutes and beyond. However, in the end finally they know nothing, just like the majority of people, who don't remember anything from their chemistry or trigonometry classes.

As experienced polyglots say sometimes: to know a language - is to speak it and to use it regularly. And even if you've read a ton of literature, know all the grammatic rules, watch CNN, but draw a blank when you attempt to start even a basic conversation, that only means you don't know the language. As opposed to someone who maybe messes it up quite a bit and has got 200 words in his arsenal, but who is communicates however very often, with enjoyment and ease.

And maybe that's the way it is with writing? If you have an inclination to write a book in English, just take the time and do it. Well, if it comes to that, there are ad hoc special editors for proofing. Although just imagine what would they do with a text that's 89% errors!

I agree with you 100% - that is why I can't say I know Russian. I know all the grammar, have an excellent vocabulary, but can't converse. That would be my ultimate dream. Maybe we can help one another...