Freelance is so stressful !

One day I decided to resign from my job and  start working as a free-lancer. I'm an illustrator, and  a flexible time table is what I needed at that moment. I wished to draw at home and have some free time for house work, preparing dinner and for a rest, because I wanted to greet my husband  home from his job with freshly cooked dinner and to look like  a refreshed, enthusiastic woman.

 The first month of such work was lucky and awful at the same time.
I found two good projects and decided to work on  both of them at the same time. The clients paid a lot of money, but I was working from 6 a.m. till midnight (18 hours a day without going out!)

I worked at these projects for 3 weeks without  resting at weekends. It was awful, and I  absolutely didn't have any free time. Finally, I was exhausted and my husband was sad, because I couldn't give him any attention. He asked me to work less and let him to pay for our general needs.

When my clients paid me, I  understood that it would  be enough for living expenses for 3 months without  me having to work. But  I couldn't stop myself and spent all the money on a  journey, cosmetics and different stuff for my mother. Also I gave a lot of money for charity. I felt myself very rich!

But when I became short of money again,  I started working at new projects,  but they brought me less money than previously. I would work just 3-4 hours a day and have a lot of time for another important things and reading a books about illustration.

Today was a stressful day, because in the morning  I could  only afford to buy myself a chocolate or one kilo of bananas. After buying these, my pockets were  absolutely empty.

I bought a chocolate and went home to work at a new illustration and to bake an apple pie to relax. Within two hours  I got a message about new income from my client. I was happy, now I would have some money for this week, and next Friday should bring me more income.

It's not funny to be in such a  situation, but in general I feel better when I can't  buy everything, that I also have time for my hobbies, family, journeys and for actually studying English. When I worked 18 hours a day and had a lot of money, I wasn't happy.

P.S.  My apple pie turned out to be delicious!