I'm broken. Fix me!! Something happened three months ago which literally changed my life. It changed the way I see things and the way I used to believe things. It changed who I was and my future. Every now and then when I think about it, it still pains me everywhere. People always says, "Work hard, it'll be paid off sooner than you think." The saying is true enough. But it doesn't apply to everybody... I have had one of the important exam in my life. The exam is going to determine what kind of courses I am eligible to take up in university. I aimed high. I set goals. I made plans. I worked hard. Even when time seemed rough, I told myself to not give up because I believed every hard work was going to be paid off. Exam was over, I was confident about it as I had covered everything needed for the exam. I had my result three months ago. It wasn't what I had expected. It definitely wasn't what I deserved. Every single day since then, I try to figure out what I did wrong. Which part I missed. Sometimes, I just want to cry it out loud. But my tears are just too proud to drop. Cryings are for people who regret that they didn't work hard enough. That's not me. I keep searching in my memory for the part that I lazed and neglected my study so that I can say, "Aha, serve you right. You should have studied harder." But I can't. I did my best. I worked hard. I covered every notes. I didn't give up when times were rough. I slept just 2 hours sometimes just to make sure I cover up all my lessons well enough. And I was confident when I walked into the exam hall because I have even done the last part - the praying to god part. But now, I have to change my mind, wipe my dreams, reconsider my choices for courses that I can pick when I enter University. "Work hard, it'll be paid off sooner than you think" sounds like a joke to me. It makes no sense.