I don't want to be a loser

After graduation, I have been living in Shanghai for 4 more years( more than 4 years;四年多了). I am（was;过去式） born in a countryside （or suburban). When I (was) young, I was taught to study hard to make  success (I was told to work hard in order to succeed). Now I find how far away I am to this goal.(Now I find myself far from reaching this goal). I lack social skills to make friends. I live lonely without family.( I live alone without family) I want to say I am tired, I want to give up, I need someone to care about me. ( I want to say that I'm tired and want to give up.)But who I should (should I) talk to?
Today I read a line: "I don't want to ask to see the distant scene; one step enough for me". Guys, do you know for a guy in trouble, how difficult will it be to move even one step? Do you guys know how difficult for a guy in trouble to move even one step?
I don't want to be (a) loser, who can help me? I know the answer is myself, but I am too weak now.