leaning to change

writing:

(Tiger, I'm not sure I understand completely what you mean, but I will give it a try.)

sometimes,I am so lonely.I lean so much thing to change myself.

Sometimes I am so lonely. I learn many things in order to change myself.

But after all,I still can't adapt it.

But even so, I still can't change.

I am still afraid of making friends even though I love to make friends.

Some friends are afraid of me because I look like a bad man. (I'm sorry.)

So I am afraid of them, too.

Sometimes I can't control myself after having a depression. (We might say "after going through a depression.)

The anger makes me painful hurt. Friends call me tiger because of my anger and they call me tortoise because my I am tender. (Do you mean that you are tender underneath a shell? Maybe your shell protects you from being hurt?)

some time i woke up in the morning and didn't want to get up for anything even I desire leaning English and japanese.

Sometimes I wake up in the morning and don't want to get up for anything even though I want to learn English and Japanese.

whatever.oclock is ticking.Is time to lean.

Whatever time the clock says, it is time to learn.