You know, life is a very funny and unfair thing. Sometimes effort isn't enough, there are times when you also need a little bit of luck (if you believe in luck). But, if I may give you some advice, there are times when we chase things that just keep running away from us, and slipping from our grasp, maybe you should stop trying so hard and live a little in the moment, let the success and the things you want come your way on their own, although of course you will need to work a little to catch that butterfly with your net. Haha, I hope you understood what I'm trying to say, and once again this is just my opinion. Best of luck to you :)

I'm not sure but some efforts that I do currently I don't know if I Will see ever his its fruits. I contnue to keep the hope..