is this friendship? These days i start to think about what friendship is. I become so confused in friendship. I have a friend,or we usually call each other our best friend. We have known each other for more than 5 years, he is a gay. You know,in China, to be a gay is not a very easy thing. So i really hope that i can always stand by him and give him more love. I couldnt remrember how many times i have cried for him these years . He cares how other think of our relationship. If someone take us as a couple,he would suddenly asked me to leave him cuz he was afraid that would be some negative effect on my future. And everytime, i was so confused and puzzled. What the hell was going on? He just blacklisted me from all the contacting tool and phone. You have any idea how i feel about it? I always think i am typical Gemini,cuz i really care about my friends. So what is that?!! But not after a long time, we would recover out relationship.He would gave me a message and pretented nothing had happened before. I would accept it every time.Anyway,he is a nice guy. Several days before it was his birthday, i have prepared the present for him for a whole month(i made a cross-snithching ).However,i cannot give it to him on time cuz i was tied up to help my sister with her newly-opend shop. And to my surpise,he didnt answer my phone when i called him on his birthday night. I just wanted to say happy birthday to him. He let the phone singing and singing....i got the feeling on what was gonig on again. Shit! I mean what the hell is happening? What did that mean? So i just leave it and tried to focus on my job . So these days i am thinking is that friendship? My heart is almost broken.How can forgot the memory of us two? We did have a lot in common.Most of the time we spend together,there are laughter and laughter. We treat each other like brother and sister. The snithching cross i made is two dogs kissing each other. The following pic is the one he gave me on my birthday.