I love women I am a student and a man, a mature one. Sometimes, when you are at your hardest part of your live, you need someone to lift you up, hold you, give you the warmth you need. You need someone that you comfortable with, to talk to, to share your problems, and to laugh with. And yet, I have nobody. It is not that I am not good enough to be loved to something, call me pervert, but my standards are high. The girls at my college are no where near of my expectations, and I deserves better. None of them are fulfilling my definition of "pretty". And if I ever become a gay, or at least have "the feelings" towards men, I wouldn't hesitate to point fingers at people in front me for not being good enough for me. I used to be a brilliant student at school, and one of the factors of my success was I was happy, happy to learn in an environment full of beauties. As for now, all of them were just a history. I need them for my studies catalyst, and I need them badly. Sometimes I pray to God that I would never judge people by appearances. God, please help me.