About job and childhood traumas I have had impossibly difficult January (as the whole world, I guess), but it brought very important changes into my life. The point is that I couldn't find a job during four months, and it was a kind of very pressing problem for me. I'm pretty grown up (21 years old), and my parents are not very rich people. So every thousand of rubles was a prickly moment for me. I'm only child in family, and my parents made the aim of their lives of me. And it probably was their main mistake, cause now our bonds are painfully strong, and I feel a kind of guilt about them while they miss me too much living in another city. I'm a student, so I have this unspoken rule to have no job during my studying, but I always think about my parents, about all possibilities they didn't have because of hard times of their youth, about all joys, that I can give them if have a little more money. I'm really interested in studying, and I always take more classes than it's necessary. I'm afraid to become silly without my regular amount of intellectual workload, but my burden presses me too strong. I just hope to be rational, brave and fast to safe all things that are so valuable for my heart. But sometimes I feel very lonely, like a small girl trying to fight with indifference around and enemies inside far from her closest people.