trying to write something Aaaaa I can't sleep. The last episode of the desperated housewives was very scaring. And I just can't help remembering the scene of the woman dying after a car crash. So then started to think about life. Why do we have to work so hard everyday since we all know what's there at the end waiting for us? Maybe not everyone work that hard just like the one who does. Maybe the ones who didn't work hard but spent all time just worrying might can't control themselves. Because for sensitive people, when they feel upset, especially upset with themselves, it really destroy them. Really feel sorry for myself. Everyday pretending to be a hardworking person to write down the must to do things one by one. Kind of proud of myself that I'm gonna be a little better than yesterday was until each one on the list is marked with a little x. Why little? Beacuse they wouldn't be that obvious to others to notice. What a stupid trick!