Feeling of futility I just soothe my feelings to write this to letter to him, and submerge this feelings under my deep bottom of my heart. You told me you felt that I don't put you the first , but I wonder what number did you placed me on you priority I asked you out on weekends, but you made new schedule on that day after our pre-appointments. You made a distance from me after the short trip to Ga-pyeong with your friends and their girlfriends. I maybe bothersome since that. I couldn't ask whose hair it was when I saw the unfamiliar strand of hair, in your house that day. I still remember the last words you told me. You told me you hate what I do for work. But I laughed when I saw your messages. You walked into that field on your own feet more than twice. You're neither pristine. I wonder what right do you to blame on what I do. I got tired of your indifference after a month of your just using me. You explained me that that hair is your sister. I laughed cuz your sister also lives in Seoul in her own house larger than yours. That doesn't make sense that your sister needed to use your bathroom to fall and leave her strand of hair. You touched my mind at first, saying that everything about me doesn't matter. But you completely told opposite words at last.